Another boring day...

Woke up and had to run to get prescriptions....what a way to start out the morning. And then I realized I have $14 left to my name for the next couple of weeks. Good thing I dont really have anywhere to go this week, huh??

Not really a whole lot going on besides that, just gotta make sure I get out to buy some lottery tickets before Wed night...cant win if ya dont play!!

Ugh

Another boring day......and I'm horny as hell. Nothing to do to get rid of the feeling, except maybe go watch a movie or play video games......something to get my mind off sex. I've been having dreams lately that are kinda scaring me, and they have to do with sex too. If anyone found out, I'd be in for some serious trouble on the home front.

I've got to find something productive to do during the day, I get so bored. My mind has way to many places to wander when I get on the computer....but I'm trying to be good.

Brain Pattern

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Service dog info

Well, I finally got up the courage to call about a service dog. I recieved the info yesterday and was just reading it over again today. And I'm pretty excited about getting one, if I qualify. I told the woman I talked to that I'm still pretty able bodied, but I have 12 pounds of stainless steel rods in my back, so that makes it alot harder to bend down and get things off the floor. She figured I'd basically be using the dog for retrieval, and that sort of thing. I agreed with her about that, and apparently thats what the dogs are there for. I'm a little nervous though, because Courtney's mom doesnt want any more pets around here. We already have 4 cats and Courtney's mom has a dog. Its a little Bichon/Schnauzer mix....hyper little fucker. But the service dog would either be a labrador or golden retriever...we'd have to try to get the labrador, because the golden retriever would send Courtney into an allergic frenzy LOL. I'm more partial to labs anyways. I'm pretty excited at the prospect of getting one, even though Courtney's mom isnt.

Courtney and I rent the main floor of her mom's house. Its a pretty nice ranch style house. Her mom has the basement fixed up, and she stays down there. She just comes up to use the bathroom and kitchen. I'm hoping that since the service dog will be of use, that her mom will be ok with it. But then I've got to figure out a way to train it to shit in a big litter box, because her mom would die if we had it crap and piss out on the lawn. Do ya think that is possible to do with such a big dog??

Damp & Dreary

I was out and about today, had a few errands to run, and is it ever gloomy out there!! Maybe 60 degrees out, but really drizzly out. My back is not liking this weather at all.

I bought some of the Mega M&Ms today......I'm diggin those!! Also picked up some cinnamon almonds from Fleet Farm. Those things are SO addicting!! I'm trying to be good with my diet, but sometimes ya gotta get a little wild, right?? haha.

I finally picked up a blaze orange hoodie type sweatshirt for hunting. Only 4X one in Fleet Farm, I'm guessing. But I also seen the funniest thing there, women's lingerie in camoflage. Trust me, thats one thing I DONT want to be hiding from me when I'm lookin for it!!! Its kinda sexy though.

I also looked at ammo for my rifle, and I think Wal Mart is going to be the cheapest place I've seen so far. I'm really itching to get out and shoot at somethin!! I also seen a hunting knife there that I'm gonna go pick up when I can afford it.

Going to see my doctor on Friday, I've been having problems with my neck. I think it has something to do with the way I sleep. I wake up alot with headaches, and when I move my neck from left to right, I can feel (and kinda hear...eww) tendons or something popping over bone. Its kinda freaky. Plus I have to let the doctor know how the Zoloft has been working for me. Actually its been a big help. I'm only on the 50mg right now, not sure if I should get it upped to 100mg or not. We'll see.

Besides all that, Courtney and I are getting married in January, and I'm nervous as hell. I'm not nervous that I'm gonna marry HER, its just that my biological father left me with some rather unsavory characteristics, and I worry that I'm going to screw something up. My biological father cheated on any woman that he's been with, and I'll admit, I look...ALOT when I'm out and about. But I dont approach anyone, or do anything I'm not supposed to. I think about what it would be like to be with some of the women I see, and I have some rather X rated dreams, but I dont think I could ever bring myself to cheat on Courtney. This relationship is the most serious one I've ever had. We've been together for a little over 3 years, and that is the longest I've ever been with someone. First we were going to get married in July of 2007...which I was ok with. Then she moved it up to September of 2006....ok, I could live with that. But now she moved it up to January of 2006.....and I'm scared shitless!!

More to come..........

Cold again.....but I like it

Woke up to temps in the low 40's. It was about 9:30, and the damn cats HAD to use my bed as a wrestling ring!! Courtney wanted me to go to Wal Mart with her, so she could get some beads to make a necklace and earrings for her sister. So within a matter of 15 minutes, I went for sleeping soundly to climbing in my van to head out to Wal Mart. At least I got a good Subway sammich out of the deal. Then I had to drop Courtney off at work, and go put some gas in my van. That heater in the van works like magic, I tell ya!! Weird how yesterday we needed the A/C going, now today we gotta turn on the heat. Oh well, I'm happy with it. I love this time of year!! Just gotta break out the heavier shirts.

Its almost the weekend, and on Monday I should be picking up my new pair of glasses. I havent had to wear glasses since the 6th grade!! Thats ok though, I dont mind. They are decent looking frames anyways.

Ahhhh Hump Day!!

Yay, Wednesday is here. The weekend is almost here!! Not that I have anything planned, but I just feel better on the weekends. I'm hoping to get out this weekend (finally) and go shoot my rifle. So many things have popped up, I just havent had time.

The weather is supposed to get cooler tomorrow too. The high today is supposed to be 85, and the high tomorrow is going to be 52. Damn, talk about a difference!!! Thats 33 degrees cooler!! It will make for good sleeping weather at night though. I hope Northwoods Woman doesnt get TO cold up there. :o)

Not a whole lot going on today. Just a blah day. Maybe I'll go read for a while......maybe go bake some cookies....I dont really know yet :oP

How frustrating...

The Packers lost, again. I dont know if its the players or the coaches. Its only the 4th time in the history of the team that they have started 0-4. They played pretty good in the second half, but its ALWAYS like that. The first half, they have no sense of urgency. And at the end of the game, its like they have no clue what to do for clock management. There has been talk of the offensive coordinator from the Philadelphia Eagles replacing Mike Sherman after this year. I'm not sure what to think of that yet. I do know that something has to be done though. Its just really frustrating...

Besides that, its not a bad day so far. Supposed to be strong thunderstorms today. I'm REALLY looking forward to that. Not much out there right now, but hopefully it starts building up soon!!

I went to watch the Packer game with a good friend of mine last night. We used to be roommates, but we havent been able to hang out to much in the last couple of years. But we figured the Packer game would be a good reason to hang out. We had an awesome venison roast, makes me wish hunting season was here already. My friend has a Black Lab, and I'm happy to say that we're buddies now!! He constantly wanted me to pet him, and when he'd lay down, he would lay down right next to me. Normally alot of animals freak out when they see my wheelchair, but it didnt seem to phase this dog. Makes me want to call about getting one of those helper dogs. I'm pretty mobile, but I think it would help me to have a dog like that. I have days where I think I really shouldnt get one, that someone else needs one more than I do, but there are always going to be puppies being born that will be perfect for something like that. Maybe I'll just call for some information on it.

To see, or not to see....

So I had an appointment at the vision center today. I've been diabetic for the last 8 years or so, and my old doctor kept harping on me to get my eyes checked. Well, I started to see a new doctor up here in Oshkosh, and they have a vision center within the hospital. So I went in this morning at 10am. Had the usual eye exams and was suprised that my right eye is 20/20, but my left eye is 20/50. So the doctor puts some drops in my eyes to dialate my pupils. Oh boy was that fun!!! I still cant focus on stuff close to my face, but its slowly coming around. AND I'm gonna need glasses. :o/ Oh well, comes with age, huh?? I picked out some halfway decent frames though.

I'm also starting to put together an exercise regiment and diet. I'm 280 and this is really frustrating me. I've gotta do something to get thinner. I have a ton of shirts that I cant wear because I'm to heavy. Plus I'll be able to sleep better, keep my diabetis under control better..basically just feel better all the way around. I'll try to keep ya posted on how things are going. Starting a South Beach type diet this week.....wish me luck!!