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I dont get in here much...maybe I should just delete this whole thing.

Wow, YEARS have gone by!!

I'm getting divorced, and I've gotten into my own apartment. I live with my cat, Bug.

I had gastric bypass surgery on December 9th, 2008, and I've lost about 100 pounds so far. Kinda excited to lose more. Gotta have surgery to remove the extra skin...not really looking forward to that, but it'll make me look better. Hmmm, maybe I need some plastic surgery on my face...something to think about.

If I can remember my email and pw for this, I'll try to post more often. I doubt anyone reads this stuff...but ya never know.

And spambots....fuck off.

Yay, I posted!!

Well, its been quite a while since I posted here. Just nothing really to talk about.

The deer hunting season opened on this last Saturday, and I was out there bright and early....ok, so it wasnt very bright yet, but damn was it early. I woke up at 4:45am, and got picked up around 5:30 by my future brother in law. We went down to where we were gonna hunt, and got all settled in. I was sitting in the passenger seat. We had been talking all morning, and waiting for deer. It wasnt to cold out, so I had my window open all morning, just in case I had to shoot at a deer. Well...I'd say roughly around 8-8:30 am, we're talking and I glance out my window to see if any deer were out by the woods, and one had come across the road behind us and was only about 50 yards away. My heartbeat doubled in a matter of seconds!!! Since I was in the passenger seat, I couldnt swing around to my right quite as far as I was comfortable with, but I could make a shot. I hit the deer square in the shoulder, thinking it would drop right there or run a little ways and drop in the woods. Well, we waited a while and Dwayne decided to go see if he could find her body. He tracked her all the way from the point where I shot her, through the field, through the woods and halfway through the next field....but no deer. I was rather upset, but that wasnt the worst deer story of the day.

I drove Dwayne back to his house, because he had stuff to do and was going to drive out later to see if I had any luck. So I get back out to the field around 1pm or so, and dont see a deer until around 4pm. And its the most beautiful buck I've ever seen!!! He was anywhere from a 6-8 pointer, and just a beautiful dark brown color. I took my first shot and must have missed him, because he ran a few yards and stopped. He turned his head back towards me to see where that big noise came from. I pulled the bolt back and another bullet got slammed into the chamber. I got the deer in my scope again, and I had to calm myself down a little, I was shaking so bad. I got the deer in the crosshairs, just behind his shoulder.....let out a long exhale and pulled the trigger. BAM!!! He jumps in the air and runs into the woods. I'm hyper now!!! Thinking I just got my first buck, I tear ass out of the field with my van and drive around to the other side of the block, just to see if he came out the other side. Nope, he's still in there. A guy that used to work on our farm for my grandfather was walking up the road, and I asked if he seen a deer run out. Nope, but he'd help me look in the woods for it. So he went looking through one end of the woods...nothin. I told him not to worry about it, if its in there, my brother in law Dwayne will find it for sure. He's a great tracker. So I run back to Dwayne's house, about 15-20 mins away. I end up having to stay there for about two hours while Dwayne and his wife are at a birthday party. Finally he gets home and we take off for the woods. Its dark as hell out, but Dwayne has a flashlight and is more than eager to get out and find this buck for me. Well, he follows the blood through 2/3 of the woods, and hears a big animal get up and slowly start walking around. He comes back to the van and says its still in there, but its still alive. We'll be back early in the morning, so we'll get it then. I'm all kinds of excited now, and it took me forever to fall asleep Saturday night.

I woke up at 4:45 again on Sunday morning, drive to pick up Dwayne and we head out to the woods. We get out there roughly around 6:15, so we have to wait another 10 mins for hunting to actually start. Then a little longer for it to be light enough that he can actually see the blood on the ground. So he goes back in the woods to find the buck......no buck what so ever!! I'm pissed at myself at this point. I should have shot it better, aimed a little longer. But yesterday Dwayne is walking through the woods trying to get some deer to move, and hears some snorting coming from somewhere very close. He figures that buck is still in there. Last night we heard him crashing around in there, and just didnt have the light to stick around to try to lure him out all the way. I'm taking today (Wednesday) off and tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Early on Friday morning we are going back out, and we have until Sunday to get two deer. Dwayne already has his two, so he's going along to help me spot deer and bring them back up to the van if I shoot any. He'll also gut them for me. I'm really hoping I can get that damn buck, finally. That's become my mission for this deer hunting season.

I'll post again early next week to let you know if I got anything. Wish me luck!!!!

Tired of the same old same old

I've gotta have something change in my life, but I dont know what. I never have money, I'm always tired, I'm always bored.....and I have NOTHING to do!! Courtney is always tired when she gets home from work, so we dont really go anywhere or do anything. I'm bored as hell.

I'm also irritated that things around here are messy. I cant do everything myself, but Courtney is one of the least motivated people I know. Her mom is on vacation for a little over a week, and I dont think she's done ANYTHING as far as cleaning. I'm gonna lose my mind soon.

Another boring day...

Woke up and had to run to get prescriptions....what a way to start out the morning. And then I realized I have $14 left to my name for the next couple of weeks. Good thing I dont really have anywhere to go this week, huh??

Not really a whole lot going on besides that, just gotta make sure I get out to buy some lottery tickets before Wed night...cant win if ya dont play!!

Ugh

Another boring day......and I'm horny as hell. Nothing to do to get rid of the feeling, except maybe go watch a movie or play video games......something to get my mind off sex. I've been having dreams lately that are kinda scaring me, and they have to do with sex too. If anyone found out, I'd be in for some serious trouble on the home front.

I've got to find something productive to do during the day, I get so bored. My mind has way to many places to wander when I get on the computer....but I'm trying to be good.

Brain Pattern

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Service dog info

Well, I finally got up the courage to call about a service dog. I recieved the info yesterday and was just reading it over again today. And I'm pretty excited about getting one, if I qualify. I told the woman I talked to that I'm still pretty able bodied, but I have 12 pounds of stainless steel rods in my back, so that makes it alot harder to bend down and get things off the floor. She figured I'd basically be using the dog for retrieval, and that sort of thing. I agreed with her about that, and apparently thats what the dogs are there for. I'm a little nervous though, because Courtney's mom doesnt want any more pets around here. We already have 4 cats and Courtney's mom has a dog. Its a little Bichon/Schnauzer mix....hyper little fucker. But the service dog would either be a labrador or golden retriever...we'd have to try to get the labrador, because the golden retriever would send Courtney into an allergic frenzy LOL. I'm more partial to labs anyways. I'm pretty excited at the prospect of getting one, even though Courtney's mom isnt.

Courtney and I rent the main floor of her mom's house. Its a pretty nice ranch style house. Her mom has the basement fixed up, and she stays down there. She just comes up to use the bathroom and kitchen. I'm hoping that since the service dog will be of use, that her mom will be ok with it. But then I've got to figure out a way to train it to shit in a big litter box, because her mom would die if we had it crap and piss out on the lawn. Do ya think that is possible to do with such a big dog??

Damp & Dreary

I was out and about today, had a few errands to run, and is it ever gloomy out there!! Maybe 60 degrees out, but really drizzly out. My back is not liking this weather at all.

I bought some of the Mega M&Ms today......I'm diggin those!! Also picked up some cinnamon almonds from Fleet Farm. Those things are SO addicting!! I'm trying to be good with my diet, but sometimes ya gotta get a little wild, right?? haha.

I finally picked up a blaze orange hoodie type sweatshirt for hunting. Only 4X one in Fleet Farm, I'm guessing. But I also seen the funniest thing there, women's lingerie in camoflage. Trust me, thats one thing I DONT want to be hiding from me when I'm lookin for it!!! Its kinda sexy though.

I also looked at ammo for my rifle, and I think Wal Mart is going to be the cheapest place I've seen so far. I'm really itching to get out and shoot at somethin!! I also seen a hunting knife there that I'm gonna go pick up when I can afford it.

Going to see my doctor on Friday, I've been having problems with my neck. I think it has something to do with the way I sleep. I wake up alot with headaches, and when I move my neck from left to right, I can feel (and kinda hear...eww) tendons or something popping over bone. Its kinda freaky. Plus I have to let the doctor know how the Zoloft has been working for me. Actually its been a big help. I'm only on the 50mg right now, not sure if I should get it upped to 100mg or not. We'll see.

Besides all that, Courtney and I are getting married in January, and I'm nervous as hell. I'm not nervous that I'm gonna marry HER, its just that my biological father left me with some rather unsavory characteristics, and I worry that I'm going to screw something up. My biological father cheated on any woman that he's been with, and I'll admit, I look...ALOT when I'm out and about. But I dont approach anyone, or do anything I'm not supposed to. I think about what it would be like to be with some of the women I see, and I have some rather X rated dreams, but I dont think I could ever bring myself to cheat on Courtney. This relationship is the most serious one I've ever had. We've been together for a little over 3 years, and that is the longest I've ever been with someone. First we were going to get married in July of 2007...which I was ok with. Then she moved it up to September of 2006....ok, I could live with that. But now she moved it up to January of 2006.....and I'm scared shitless!!

More to come..........